I’m Alright
I have to admit that I am one of those people that is pretty content wherever I go (except jobs, it seems). I’m mostly referring to life in general. Like I’m an easy going, “take what life throws at you (or the chaos that your create for yourself) and do what you have to do to get through it and come out smiling on the other side” kind of gal. It has come to my attention recently that most of the people that I get along with are of a similar nature. As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I’m not much of a thinker, so imagine my surprise when this thought just popped into my head. I mean, I realized I DONT get along with people who whine, moan and make excuses for for everything gone wrong in their lives, but I did not realize that those I get along best with are much like me. I mean it makes sense, I’m pretty amazing, so why wouldn’t I want to be around people who subconsciously remind me of me.
As I may have also mentioned previously, I’ve made a mess of my life and others lives in the wake of mine. But I don’t think I ever
Blamed someone else for my mistakes
Whined about it
Didn’t take responsibility
Now, don’t get me wrong. I wasn’t a total degenerate, but was not on a good path….
After high school I was a drinker and smoker with loose morals (trying not to make this sound so bad). I had a warrant out for my arrest (I mean, who didn’t back then….lol….again trying to make light). Was a thief both at my work and by breaking into cars on campus…
And then I got caught. And I owned it, and I accepted the consequences…
I was alright .
And I moved on to the Army.
Where I drank, smoked, loosened those morals a bit more. Got married, did not tighten the morals up at all……
And I got caught. I owned it, accepted the consequences….divorce.
I was alright.
And I met my husband.
Long story short, he keeps me on the straight and narrow….lol.
He makes me want to be a better person than I was when I met him. For him. For my children. And now for my grandchildren.
But my point out of this is that I can make me “work” in any circumstance. I’m going to be alright.
I say this confidently knowing I have not had anything hard thrown at me in life. Or at least what I would perceive to be hard such as losing a parent, or a child, or a husband. I haven’t been in a situation that made me homeless or devastatingly hungry. Emotionally and situationally though, I’ve been through some shit and come out stronger on the other side.
https://youtu.be/9zo-A_F7awg?si=IUipkMM0JYrb6ChJ - Jo Dee Messina
This song actually doesn’t have a whole lot to do with everything above here, but when I listened to it tonight it’s all I could think about. I’m alright! I always have been and I truly think I always will be. I’m a survivor.
But let me tell you where this song used to take me. This song came out in 1998, the year Tom and I met (irrelevant to the story). The words of it remind me of my friend, Josh Logsdon, from college. We were inseparable from the time we met. He was from Ohio, with Louisville roots, and we met through the marching band. We just hit it off. He held my hair the first time I puked after drinking, I spent time with his grandma just hangin out, we skipped classes together, we went to the gym on campus nearly every day and worked out. We didn’t date but we did everything together. We knew what the other wanted out of life. He was definitely my best friend. I have nothing but fond memories of him and when I hear this song it has always made me think of a time when we will reunite and say “I’m Alright”because our lives turned out so well and we couldn’t be happier.
Because I’m alright. I also don’t show a ton of emotion (thanks dad) so when I say something is “alright” it usually means a whole lot more. We always knew when dad tried something new and he said “it’s alright” that meant it was a winner. I’m my dad.
Let me tie this back to the beginning……yeah right…..this has been “Deep Thoughts by Dawn Szerszen”
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