A Little Bit Off

Cmon! Listen! https://youtu.be/8TjSrR64DtQ?si=oWK4OMTElTG6CB3P

I’m a pretty laid back person….go with the flow….take what’s given to me and move through it. I’m not an over-thinker….barely even a thinker…lol. Some people may look down on that. I don’t really give a shit what other people think of me. I probably did once, now they can fuck off. Like me, don’t like me, whatever.

I have never had to worry about “fitting in” anywhere. I’ve always been able to get along with anyone. I like to have fun, poke fun at people and can take being made fun of. Don’t get me wrong, there are personalities that rub me the wrong way, but I’m mature enough to deal with them and move on.

But every once in a while I get angry like everyone does….and I can’t let it go. Surely this is normal for most people, but it isn’t for me, and it bothers me. So here I am angry about something I can normally let go, and THEN I’m angry because I’m angry! And then my daughter is worried about me, because it’s out of my normal character…and my husband doesn’t know what to do with me….

So let’s circle back……I love people, but people suck.

I am assuming that I learned this from my mom but I was taught by her/someone to try to understand where others are coming from when they are speaking to you. Sometimes they are coming from a place of hurt and anger and speak to you that way. They aren’t really angry at you but some other situation. Someone experiencing pain may come across the same way. Someone who is defensive may have been criticized their whole life….and so on. I know I am always looking for things like this because when I’m looking for the “why” someone is the way they are, my husband sees it as me defending them. “You would defend Osama Bin Laden!” Is my favorite quote from Tom. But think about it, wasn’t Bin Laden just a product of his environment and upbringing? I’M KIDDING! He was evil.

So although I’m pretty good at dealing with people and diffusing situations, sometimes I hate it. “People” are my job. Whether it’s patients or people I work with daily. I can’t believe I’m sitting here complaining about my job that I absolutely love. Complaining about people…as if EVERYONE doesn’t have to deal with people all day every day. But here I am…..ready to explode over someone who I can’t stand, have to deal with daily and can’t do a thing about it. Maybe she was just raised by a circus and has no self-esteem and has to make up for it by talking to people like an ass…..

Get the fuck over it, Dawn…..get over it.